I rest in Your open Arms of Love

I died last year in car accident and it was the year of our first anniversary. And it was all your fault but I couldn’t blame you because it was my choice. And I want you to know what happened to me after I died.

When I was on hospital the Doctor said that I’m going to die but before it happen I prayed…” Please God, give me a second life. So I can revenge on him in anyways.”

The year has past and then I lived again. I had a new body and a new soul. The only one thing comes from my mind was to find you, but not to revenge,to know what kind of person you are after I died. Unfortunately, I found you last month and did my best for you to fall in love again and then you fell in me. I’m so happy having a relationship with you and you have changed a little.

On April 29, 2010 and it was 11:45 p.m at the bus station, both of us was in there still waiting for the another bus. In a moment, you have an emergency call and I understand it because it is important, after all you left me. When I’m waiting, there was something wrong, I felt someone’s looking at me. I’m a little scared so I started to walk far away from him. When I’m turned around, I saw him following me. I didn’t know what to do that time so I tried to call you but not responding.

I went to phone boot try to call you again but it said busy, and then I locked the door and there’s no one in outside. I tried to scream but they couldn’t hear me and then I cried and hang a phone. I saw him again approaching me.

When I’m standing on the right corner of the phone boot, I saw him trying to open the door and what I am afraid for is, he is holding a knife in his right hand. Then he broke the glass and door knob of the phone boot. After that, he stabbed my body and I died. At that time, I was calling your name over and over again and hoping you would hear me.

My dear,



I wrote this to you because I want you to know how much “I hate you”. Why? here, read it carefully and realize what you’ve done to me in almost one year.

You left me alone in this world with no words to say. I thought before that we could be together as long as I live but it is just a dream. At the very first day I’ve met you there’s a words from your mouth that I should believe in, but it was all a lie. You always kiss me the way you wanted but actually there was another person on your mind and it was not me. When we have a date you’d never hold my hands or hug me tight, so I thought it was a hang-out only and hoping that you would notice me.

A few months ago, I saw you with the other girl and I’m shocked because that girl was my best friend. You and her was so happy, holding together, smiling each other and both of you was so in love. You know, I’ve never experienced it before because you’re always not in there, but then I knew she is better than I.

In front of me, you have a fake smile, a fake laugh and the worst of all a fake love. You asked for a relationship but you didn’t meant it. You told me that you love me but you didn’t prove it. So I need a distance from you and it is better than to have a closure.

I’m telling you this because I’m tired of being desperate for you. I want you to feel what I feel because this pain in my heart was too much and I couldn’t take it anymore. And then I’ve found out that it was a game at all. My dear, I wanted to kill you but I couldn’t because until now, I’ still in love with you.





sincerely yours,
Mary

P.S,

I love you.

I sat on a fence
All along and wondering
“Why am I here?”
Asking over and over again.

A footsteps ahead
And I’ve heard a voice
Calling my precious name
“My dear Mary…”

I looked at him
And asked “Who are you?”
And then he replied, “I am the one
who always in there for you all the time.”

My heart is broken since then
But he tried to fix it all
To be fallen in love again.
I’m so thankful.

He told me everything about
Love, Faith, and Hope
And the greatest need of my life
Is to love him forever.

He is always at my side
Always hold my hands
Always hug me tight
And he never let me go.

He cared about me
He never ignored me
When I need him
He’s always in there for me.

I’m deeply falling in love with him
And that is all I can say,
But when the time goes by,
My memories of him has gone

He left me in this place
With pain and sorrow in my heart
And all I can do is crying
Like a lost flower.

I’m a prisoner of solitude
And a prisoner of alone
As long as I live
In this cruel and rotten place.

But he always reminds me,

“Don’t be afraid, because in the end
I’ll be back to take your tired soul.”

“Mary, I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.
There shall be no more death, nor sorrow,nor crying…”